OKaaay!

It's October 16, 2008 and 4:45 AM. I sat here in my comfy chair and it is all too real. I am hooked. Hooked on TV shopping. It's not fun nor funny anymore.

At least 3 of 5 days every week Santa arrives at my front door with a whole lot of gifts. I've diminished my emergency account from $10,000 to a smashing $3,000. Now, I am scared! Do I try to kick the habit cold turkey? What?!

Oh I've tried promising that the UPS truck would not come to my house for a month and for that month I bought everything I could requesting US mail. I have ordered and canceled half the products but still end up with too much. I even compromise by buying something for someone else. Nothing has worked. I need help.

Now as I sit here, I know I have to kick this habit so I am stuck with multi-tasking.

1. losing weight and increasing my physical and mental health with diet and exercise
2. getting over a 12 year relationship that's been going downhill for a long time
3. kicking this shopping habit

I know that I can do it, one hour at a time. Better still, one moment at a time. Help me help myself. I have tried almost everything.